Victory in Jesus Marriage Enrichment Ministry

The Full Story

For as long as I can remember, I've been a believer in Jesus. I even accepted His work on the cross for my salvation when I was 11-yo (1986), but a couple of years ago God revealed to me that belief in Him & FAITH in Him were 2 different things & I had never really had faith. I had never asked God His opinion on anything; I did what I wanted to do. I prayed for things I wanted or when I needed help with something, but I didn't have an active prayer life. I RARELY read the bible. I did NOT have a RELATIONSHIP with Jesus. I knew the rules; I was legalistic. I didn't reflect Christ; I was selfish, unforgiving & judgmental. I got married in 2000 & our divorce was final in 2008 (we had been separated since 2003). I got married again in 2012; I was a better person & a better wife, but my husband & I didn't have Christ as the foundation. On August 30, 2015, I found out my husband had been having an affair & I lost it. I kicked him out of the house & he has not returned. God had previously helped me overcome (He helped me. I had to do the work; He didn't deliver me) anger, depression & anxiety. I knew immediately where to turn. Only this time, He humbled me. I completely surrendered this time & for the first time in my life I could hear God speaking to me. The first thing He told me was that I had handled the situation with my husband incorrectly & I shouldn't have kicked him out. After my 2nd husband & I separated, my depression & anxiety came back, not as bad as before, but in some ways worse. This time I actually felt hopelessness & despair. I cried out to the Lord; He told me that depression & anxiety were the opposite of faith & trust & this time, He delivered me. He took depression, anxiety, hopelessness, despair, etc. & replaced them with His faith, trust, hope & peace. I used to be an impatient person, but He has kept me waiting on Him from then until now, so He has taught me steadfastness. God has not stopped talking to me. Even though my husband & I are still separated, I have experienced victory in Jesus. God has placed it on my heart to be involved in and/or create a marriage ministry to help other wives, so here I am.